FerXe LoLa

FIVE YEARS AGO

> How many piercings do you have?: 1

> How many tattoos?: zero

> What is your biggest fear: lost my family,unemployed,broke..

> Have you been arrested since? : i dont think so

> Single/Taken/Married/Divorced/Bitter: bitter

anybody can suggest how to detox.. i think my body is full with toxic…. penat jer…last nite ingat nak layan dvd get2getha tu.. tp tertido plak..dala this week x dpt cuti.. kna replace logan coz gf die nak fly pg uk… must be hard for him…wan cakap my face hari nie masam gler.. mcm zombie… ye ker.. x perasan ler… sori la to my colleague eh kalau terbuat muke yg annoying..the truth is.. i skit perut…PMS..gosh..this must be bcoz of my irregular diet..jarang minum air n makan fast food jer..yesterday, i submitted the form to apply the raya leave… i MIGHT bole amek cuti raya… yeay…so, jai, kau sorg2 la celebrate raye kat kl… heheh… hepp,xle hepi sgt.. skali cuti gua x approve.. nangis beb… raya sorg2 kat kl..tp,possibility nak approve memg susah.. dala baru je start keje..nak amek cuti plak.. senior pon kene keje..stupid.. sape la yg nak datang klcc nie time raya.. adake? hehe,xtau pun senanye…anem n liz… ble nak tgk cite heart nie.. da check online.. kat mines xde la cite tue.. kat klcc jer ade.. mebi kat mid valley ade lagi la kot..by next week da kna pakai uniform maxis hijau tue… erghhhh

so ngantuk this morning… sleep at 4 am last nite.. went to karaoke wif my mozac2k buddies.. wat a hell of a gud time..nyanyi sampai takde sore..eventhough most of the girls couldnt make it up.. only me n lina.. a bit awkward at first.. malu2 kucing..hahahah. malu la pulak.. wanted,pijie, adi, jai n parimen were there too… kelakar laa.. lagu ngarut2 jer nyanyi..but it was so much fun..dala rate murah..ilang seme problem.. credits to my fellow frens… .luv u guys… muahhh.. then lepak makan kt wangsa maju…met jaja,apek n her frens.that nite stays at lina’s house.bcoz both of us nak pg keje kul 9 the next day… pergh.. sampai umah dala kul 3 sumthing kul 6 lebey da bgn..work must come first…looking forward for our next event tau wanted.mebi berbuka ramai2.. hehehe..

i’m so exhausted today.. stay up late wif my brothers..b4 masuk ofis sempat pg potong rambut at the express hair cut shop…i think it’s too short.. dunno my dad would be ok with that… coz he has a thing seeing his daughter wif short hair..i dont mind the extra short hair… but he cut off my fringe too… urghhhh…i told that guy not too mess wif my fringe.. i wanted the same haircut as jayla ANTM..nevermind lah..during my lunch time td.. i bumped into mizz nina from teh tarik crew… dem,she’s gorgeous… x pakai make up pun cun…she always been my idol since i dont know when…

today kena kerja until 9… waa… nak balik awal… nak tgk the oc n desperate housewives… x larat nak tunggu ulangan… ngantuk..

Monday Blues…. my colleague said i look sick…i feel sick..but my temperature ok..i cannot even finished up all my meals..wat happen to me..i hate myself when i’m feeling this way..even chocolate cannot make me happy.i dont feel happy at all.yesterday,me liz n anem were in secret recipes..to my suprise i cannot finished up my cake…it never happened b4…=(..i feel like the world has turned upside down..wat i’m trying to say i’m not feeling ok… AT ALL..plus,my colleague smells like him.. i can never get the scent out of my head…

i really need to get hair cut…but,i dont have time to do it.. work until 6.. then do OT until 9.. dok umah pon bukan bole buat ape..but still, kerja teruk2 dapat extra money for what… money cant buy your happiness.. i used to think that money is the key to everything…no.. it cant make me happy..

it’s been awhile.. da lame x update blog.. quite bz these few days…it’s been week oredi.. da comfortable wif my new job..new frens,new environment but still dealing wif customers yg sengal…yeay… lagu mimpi yg sempurna-peter pan in on air…

this morning i overheard my colleague’s conversation…it’s not like i was eavesdropping but they were talking so loud like watever that they were talking not something personal…talking about how he sleep with our colleague for a few weeks..then he said.."after fed up with the fat ass, i just buat x tau.."…. x kesian ker… ish ish.. wat a shock.. how cruel a man can be..

there were times that i loathe my mum so much… we used to so close when i was little..as times grew.. we drew apart..sumtimes she can be so protective,so concerned about me..as a normal teenage, i always rebel…now,i guesss i mature enuff to know how much she luv me..how much she didnt want me get hurt..that she care about me and luv me more than anybody else in the world…i’ll never do anything to hurt her again..i wont turn my back againts her anymore..hehe.. tetiba je mushy2…

i’m so bored… my feet is killing me.. it’s all bcoz of my new shoes… damn,it gorgeous but it’s damn hurt…nyesal plak x pilih the one that my brother choose…today, i already post 2 blog entry.. lucky x bz sgt…

I’m Not Missing You"

Im not going through the motions
Waiting and hoping you call me
You might have had me open
But I must be going because
I know Im usually hanging on
I used to hate to see you gone
Oh different, feel the distance
Im not missing
Im not missing you..

this stacie orrico new single is keep playing in my head… lagu nie catchy la…that’s why letak lyric nie… nak nyanyi2… hehehe

be without you by mary j. blige is playing in my office rite now…. why all the songs played this morning put me in a not very good mood…. damn…i want sean paul song… really energetic and makes me wanna dance… i need 2 reconfigure ething in my life back… my routine,and i having a hard time rite now…. life would be better if i have amnesia…pathetic.. yes indeed…kinda sleepy rite now.. sum1 called late last nite..some more, i have sore throath… mebi bcoz of the ice cream i ate last nite…arghhh… wat worse can happen in my life…

i hate myself so much… that’s all matter rite now….why do the person name fadzilah kamaron baharin ever born…..baru nak update blog… dah nak tutup counter plak….